Day 1 - 10/2/16

Story of My Life

 

 

 

After studying my chemistry feverishly, and still feeling confused, I decided to take a little break. I opened up my laptop, and it was on a slideshow, old pictures from years ago. I looked at myself, I had lost so much weight (not enough, but a lot none-the-less) and had so much Christ in me. What happened? How did I change so much. My waist line inflated, but so did my ego... I haven't desired Jesus like I used to. I guess life has been going so well since my family moved to Georgia from Florida that I forgot Who gave it all to me. Not just the blessings, though they had been too numerous to count, but life, joy, hope, mercy, grace, love, peace, family, salvation. How could I put that on the back burner? WHY would I put that on the back burner. I was so much healthier, physically and spiritually, though I admit I'm healthier emotionally now, at least I think I am. I realized, it's time for me to take a self examination:

Do I pray everyday, and not just for my food? Sadly, no.

Do I read my Bible everyday or even as much as possible? Again, shamefully, no.

Do I exercise? Not on your life.

Do I eat right? I am supposed to eat low sodium diet, am I doing that? Nope and NEIN.

Do I really study my school work, like I should? Ehhh, not really.

So, what's important in my life? It sure isn't me, because I'm not taking care of myself. It sure doesn't seem like God, because I haven't given Him attention, either. My family misses me like crazy, so can't be them. My friends see me occasionally, but not a lot, so can't say it's them, either. If I'm honest, laziness, gluttony, and television have been my priorities lately. When I'm not working, I'm a preverbial couch potato, tried and true. I won't lie and pretend I'm not, but I am sad and ashamed to say how true it is. So, I realize I need to change that. That's the easy part. Now comes the hard part; I need to change. I love change so much! I reorganize my house monthly usually, you can ask my colleauges and they will tell you I organize things at work probably weekly, and I LOVE switching up routines. But changing myself? Now, that's pretty hard. That means I need to give up my current priorities, and who doesn't love being lazy? That means I need to put a focus on reading, studying, exercising, all both physically and spiritually. It's not just little changes, it's BIG changes. And you know what? I think I'm ready for it. Bring it on, life... BRING IT!